Why can’t humans see God’s love and compassion in a tragic situation? Stop blaming God for your own karma and just wear it out!
The moment you immerse into spiritual totally, you are no more a private being. You belong to everyone equally and impartially.
Afflictions are of three kinds, those which can be cured by doctor/medicine, Master/spirituality and the last only with love!
You can destroy a life or a lifetime of goodness by a single lie or a mean act. Strive harder and do not succumb to the devil.